From: Dr Sebby (drsebby@hotmail.com)
Date: Fri May 07 2004 - 13:48:24 MDT
....your welcome.
....i will tell you about the 'trip' itself: needle in my arm...nurse told
me to count....at about 4 i felt an odd "icy"feeling going up my arm...at
about 6 or 7 the world and everything in it, including myself name of
sebastian, ceased to be. i was suddenly in an extremely bizarre dreamlike
state but essentially totally lucid...except for the fact that i had no
awareness of any earthly/physical existence. i still felt like "me" and
that i had existed all along....but with no name or any other physical
attributes, including history, memory, etc. instead i saw myself as a
little tiny 'spark' of electricity perhaps...or something like it, racing
around in some vast maze of 'circuitry' perhaps? in retrospect it felt a
lot like "Tron" in some ways. i was zipping around in this "system" of
which i knew absolutely nothing...total lack of familiarity with the system
i was in, the rules(if any), and what the hell i was supposed to do. what
i DID 'know' was that someone was trying to snuff me out....not directly
though...it was more like i knew someone or something or some force was
trying to shut me down...likely by shutting down the 'system' that i was in.
so i had the acute awareness that something must be done to save my ass
and prevent this from happening. the only problem was that i had no
knowledge of how this was going to be done, since i had zero knowledge of
where the focal point of 'attack' was being executed....or how vast the
'system' was. i just kept zipping around in mild panic and futility. i
interpret this now as perhaps my body (the system) being "hurt" by the
doctor antagonizing my nerve endings whilst resetting my nose bones....and
me being remotely aware of this "damage" being done and yet having no
capacity to deal with it or prevent it.
...i understand that being knocked out is the exact same effect that truth
seroms create (just on the waking up part)...just that truth seroms dont
take you so 'far down' and near death as knockout state where an
aenathesiologist is at your side monitoring your second by second vital
status. and apparently a sedative is usually administered prior, due to
psychological trauma or fear experienced during sedation. i found it to be
nothing short of amazing to see how simplified my brain could become. at
least that's how it seemed from my perspective. who knows if my
interpretations are totally incorrect.
DrSebby.
"Courage...and shuffle the cards".
----Original Message Follows----
From: Jei <jei@cc.hut.fi>
Reply-To: virus@lucifer.com
To: virus@lucifer.com
Subject: Re:virus: War & Peace / Rethinking Iraq
Date: Fri, 7 May 2004 16:38:30 +0300 (EEST)
Heh, I imagine Saddam must be having a real *experience*
of it by now... ^____^
Thank you for sharing your experience with us Sebby.
I find these really very interesting...
On Fri, 7 May 2004, Dr Sebby wrote:
> ...no, it wasnt sodium pentathol or some-such thing. it was effectively
the
> exact same thing though....more dangerous however and thus not used for
such
> purposes. it was simply being knocked out for very minor surgery for a
> broken nose...naturally requiring an anathesiologist. it was in Tokyo,
and
> unlike the standard practise of tranquilizing the patient first, they
just
> gave it to me straight off...it was one of the weirdest "trips" i couldve
> imagined. i'll tell you about the actual experience later. but for now
> i'll jump straight to the end...when i was coming out of it. i was in a
> semi-concious state....babbling about anything and everything. luckily
> they didnt speak much english, and i somehow got stuck on reciting
> poetry....but if my mind had wandered or been led to anything else...and
i
> mean ANYTHING, i wouldve had absolutely NO problem yapping about it in
the
> most painfully honest of terms. i wouldve freely and openly discussed
any
> and all of my most personal insecurities, embarrassing deeds, deepest
> feelings etc....without the slightest touch of reservation. i realized
this
> soon after emerging into full conciousness and self-control and quickly
> imagined what curious things doctors are often treated to in such
> circumstances. the best way i can describe it is that i had absolutely
> ZERO awareness of the real world, my physical being, my involvement in
some
> sort of real world, or who the hell i was talking to or for.
>
> DrSebby.
--- To unsubscribe from the Virus list go to <http://www.lucifer.com/cgi-bin/virus-l> _________________________________________________________________ Protect your PC - get McAfee.com VirusScan Online http://clinic.mcafee.com/clinic/ibuy/campaign.asp?cid=3963 --- To unsubscribe from the Virus list go to <http://www.lucifer.com/cgi-bin/virus-l>
This archive was generated by hypermail 2.1.5 : Fri May 07 2004 - 13:49:30 MDT